I think that the Lord is trying to tell me something about what I’ll be doing pretty much for the rest of my life. There is no doubt in my mind what the Lord’s will is for my life. The Lord has called me to write for Him in these last days of human government. How do I know this? Writing is my passion and I don’t just write when I have nothing else to do, or when I get in the mood off and on, and after I do all my other projects first. I have very little balance in my life right now because writing is all that I do.
Even if I had something else to do or had a relationship, I wouldn’t have much time to do it or spend time with her. Don’t get me wrong, I’m elated and passionate about what I am doing for the Lord, but I’m getting close to burn out, (but I won’t quit.) I’m not going to fail God as well. I may have too many writing projects going at the same time, but Jesus, who began a good work in me, will bring it to completion . For instance,
I have one book that is finished but need to edit. I have a book that God recently gave to me on which I have only written two chapters. I have a fiction book that I have haven’t even started as yet but have the outline finished. This is not counting a bi-monthly blog that I have to keep up with for my readers. (I used to write this weekly.) Speaking of which because of all my writing projects, I didn’t have a topic for this up-coming blog. I needed to rest in the Lord  for a refreshing. God periodically stops feeding me stuff when I get to that stage. He recently gave me the opportunity to rest in Him
I thank you Jesus for the opportunity to do something for my brothers and sisters, for giving me a ministry in your kingdom, and for your glory.
Recently, I stopped over at a friend’s house to spend the night and get some uninterrupted sleep and rest after a birthday party before continuing on home. I was mentally fatigued and close to exhaustion. It was mid-morning and I got this pressure in my bladder that told me to get up and go. . .NOW! Which I did.
This friend lives in the forest and it gets quite dark there. I sat up in my bed, pulled the covers back, and hung my legs over the edge of the bed. I stepped onto the floor and turned toward the door, which was only about four to five feet away. As God as my witness, I could NOT see the nose on my face. It was pitch black in the room. The room was completely and totally black. The trees even hid the light from the stars coming through the window. It was scary black.
However, I knew where the door was so I began my trek to exit the room. Now, I’m 73 years old, and to date, I have walked for more than 72 of them, but after a couple of steps, I felt myself listing forward. It startled me and I tried catching myself but I couldn’t. I stretched out my left hand to brace and catch myself against the door to the bedroom. I hoped I was close enough to catch myself without damaging my right shoulder any further. It worked. I caught myself. Whew! I left the room, did my duty, and went back to bed. Even going back through the room again, I felt a little disorientated before I bumped into the bed and crawled under the covers.
The way that my body has been falling apart lately, I was hoping that it wasn’t my equilibrium that was failing me now as well. UGH! Instead of another failed body part, I chose to believe that the room was so black that my brain had no point of reference with which to balance itself. (I mean the room was totally black. You have no idea.) As I lay there in bed thinking about my trip to the bathroom, I recognized the unction in my spirit that the Lord was hinting at something. I had my blog.
My (just about) accident was a perfect metaphor. The darkness and blackness of the room, was the enemy in our lives and the destruction that he can cause if we are not rooted and balanced IN Christ. As the door saved my bacon that night, so can Jesus, who is the Door, save us from the enemy, and all of his dastardly deeds, to steal, kill, and destroy.
v9 I am the door: by me if any man enter in, he shall be saved, and shall go in and out, and find pasture.
v10 The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly. [John 10:9, 10 KJV]
As Clarke points out in his commentary to this John 10 Scripture, Shall go in and out are all the actions of a man’s life, and the liberty he has of acting, or not acting. A good shepherd conducts his flock to the fields where good pasturage is to be found; watches over them while there, and brings them back again and secures them in the fold. So he that is taught and called of God feeds the flock of Christ with those truths of his word of grace which nourish them unto eternal life; and God blesses together both the shepherd and the sheep, so that going out and coming in they find pasture: every occurrence is made useful to them; and all things work together for their good.
In otherward, if we follow Christ and let Him lead us, He will save our bacon, in everything, with the truths and grace of God. God is no respecter of person . He saved my bacon that night. . .and He will save yours. And it shall come to pass, that whosoever shall call on the name of the Lord shall be saved. .
 Philippians 1:6
 Psalms 46:10
 Acts 10:34
 Acts 2:21; Romans 10:13